one of the hardest things about working as an editorial photographer is learning to let go. many times, editing falls outside of your realm of control, styling often does and then the possibility of pouring your soul into a shoot and have it not run - well there's the clincher. above is the entire spread i shot this summer for a magazine that sadly did not publish the images. it happens to all of us - but it never gets easier. when i realized there was no longer a reason to not share - i decided i HAD to share. my soul - my heart - is in everyone of these frames. i shot this spread on Impossible Project's film and I could not be happier - nor more moved by the magic and ethereal beauty of the photographs. of course, it helped having a gaggle of gorgeous little beauties to photograph who all belong to some of my favorite people in the whole world.
but i also wanted to show you these images because they are me. i have two packs of polaroid 600 film left. it hurts my heart. i associated that film so closely with my own eye - i could not distinguish the two. the reality of it is crushing down on me and i've realized it's not only affected me - but my work. i've been lost somewhere in the mix of shooting weddings and food, writing books (all of which i love), and moving all over the country, that i forgot what i truly loved to photograph. you see the answer above - beautiful children on instant film. it's time for me to refocus, to be true to my vision and shoot again for myself. thank you Impossible for making that possible.
*edited to say: this shoot would not have been possible without the incredibly beautiful floral pieces designed by the floral lab - thank you lady! *